Breaking Lucas by Amanda Kaitlyn
Title: Breaking Lucas
Author: Amanda Kaitlyn
Genre: Contemporary romance
Release: October 9th 2016
He was my everything.
My every day and my every night.
My every dream and my every hope.
And then he was gone.
Someone once told me that love knows no bounds. It went beyond time, distance or hatred.
Could that possibly be true?
It wasn’t until five years after the day Lucas walked away from our life that I realized how true that was. He came barreling back into my reality and I was powerless to stop the love that still festered inside of my soul for him.
Now that he’s back, I don’t know how I can protect my heart from the wrath he’ll bring.
Even after all we’ve lost can we find the love we once shared, once more?
"I was a f****ng fool, Kaelyn. There isn't a day that's gone by I haven't wished I'd stayed with you."
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Amazon/Goodreads Rating: 4/4 Stars
In Patti's Imagination Rating: 9/10 Stars
I first met Lucas and Kaelyn in Finding Beautiful, which was written about her sister finding love. In that book I loved them as a couple, and thought they had an amazing, strong relationship. When starting this book I was heartbroken, as Lucas chose to leave his marriage to the love of his life, and also their sweet daughter, who I believe was about 4 at the time, thinking that to abandon them would be better than to make them endure his cancer diagnosis. It made me pity him and yet at the same time I was angry at him and disappointed in him. Understandably this sent Kaelyn into a deep depression, especially since she had just found out she was pregnant with their second daughter. Without any explanation to go on it must've been extremely hard for her to accept. The story then picks up about 5 years later, where Lucas and Kaelyn see each other for the first time since he left and he realizes once again what a colossal mistake he made in leaving. The cancer is still ravaging his body but he wants his family back. She resists, not wanting to put herself and her girls through more heartbreak if he were to leave again. I found myself unsure on whether they would end up together or not, and also unsure if he would survive.
I enjoyed this book and give it a 4 1/2 star rating, as there were some confusing timeline issues but I believe that's due to the fact that I had an unedited ARC.
Violence Level 1
(Scale of 1 to 5, Five being the Highest) –
Heat Level (See Scale Below) – 2
- Sweet - 1 (anything from no romance to sex behind closed doors)
- Mild - 2 (can contain several lovemaking scenes, without graphic language)
- Highly Sensual - 3 (can include hot, frequent love scenes, standard for mainstream romance)
- Erotic Romance - 4 (includes clinical/graphic terms for body parts and intercourse. It may include light BDSM, more frequent use of BGLT sex scenes, ménage and anal sex as long as its frequency does not outweigh normal sex. It must contain a romantic theme.)
- Erotica - 5 (highly explicit/graphic/frequent, may include heavy use of BDSM, GLBT, ménage and anal. Not entirely dependent on romance.)
Excerpt (1-3 per book)
Excerpt 1 – The lyrics stirred the longing I had tried to diminish for so long and I felt the emotion clouding my vision as I tipped my head down, allowing my eyes to bleed the pain of losing her.
Kaelyn. Fuck, my sweet Kaelyn.
All of the things that I want to say just aren’t coming out right
I’m tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I don’t know where to go from here.
Something about you now
I can’t quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful,
Everything she does is right.
The lyrics came to an end and I didn’t bother to open my eyes.
I didn’t think about drowning it out.
I had to feel it, I had to feel it all.
Everything I had hidden from, everything I had yearned for.
I was exposed.
Clutching my head with frantic fingers, I said yet another prayer that once this was all over, my treatment and this fucking disease, I was going to get her back.
If she would have me.
Excerpt 2 – “I don’t want to run” I whisper, my hands gripping onto his shoulders in need.
Lucas dips his mouth to my forehead and places an open mouthed kiss to my skin.
“Then, Sweetheart let me show you. I will tell you everything. Just let me in”
I’m nodding before he even gets his words out, the wall that had shielded my heart from him cracking and falling away as I mold myself to him and wrap my legs around him so he has no choice but to lift me into his arms.
His arms grip onto me as if I will slip away at any moment, his sure footsteps taking us into my bedroom where he sits at the end of my bed, never letting me go as he does so. His mouth crushes gently onto mine and sparks fly beneath my skin as I taste his wintergreen scent and the rough scent that he emanates. My lips fall open on a deep moan and as he delves his tongue over mine, I whisper his name.
“Fuck, Kaelyn” He growls against our kisses, moving his mouth away in order to sear my with his intense gaze. I blink away my tears and run my hands over his head, a sharp need to remove what covers it making an appearance.
Just then, I hear the giggling of two little girls outside the bedroom and I’m reminded what I had intended to do before Lucas stole my level head and heart just a few minutes ago.
“I have to put the girls to bed. Do you want to come with me?”
A blindingly beautiful smile spreads his features as he nods, his lips rubbing over mine once more.
“I would be honored”
Excerpt 3 – Her honey brown eyes raised to mine and I saw the warmth in them and I knew it was all for me. Every ounce of it. Her teeth came down to her bottom lip and her eyes fell from mine, her concentration now solely focused on mastering the rhythm of her next chord. Playing guitar had always been hard for her but she had learned it for me. She had always wanted to support me. Gritting my teeth, I wanted to punch myself for being so blind. If only I had trusted in our love, I would never have hurt this beautiful, strong woman. She was sweet and true, genuine and kind, sassy and sexy and she was mine.
Always had been. Always would be.
Kaelyn Anne Jones would always belong to me.
Heart. Body. Soul. Mind.
I would cherish her for the rest of my days.
That was my vow to myself.
Character Casting (if available) –
Charlie Hunnam- Lucas Jones
Mila Kunis- Meghan Davis
Margot Robbie- Kaelyn Morgan